Mothers Day

    My whole life all i wanted to do was be a mom. When i was younger i would push out my belly anxious for the day i would have a sweet little baby inside me. I would pretend that my little siblings were my own babies. I seriously couldn't wait to be a mom, i just knew it was going to be my calling in life! Being a mother has been so much different than i thought it would. I thought the moment my baby was born i would have this instant connection with her and have an overwhelming feeling that being a mom was what i was meant to do.
    To be completely honest, it hasn't been like that at all. Becoming a new mom has been the most challenging time in my life and its brought me to my knees more times than i can count. This mother's day was actually a little hard for me. I felt weird being celebrated as a mother because most days i feel like I'm just not cut out for it.
    All i can do is try to be the best mom possible to this sweet little baby and even at 3 in the morning when i want to throw in the towel, i know that Sloane is the greatest blessing in my life. I love you so much Sloane, thank you for letting me be your mom even though i've already made a thousand mistakes, and for making me want to be a better person and a better mom everyday! and just know that one day i will repay you for all the sleepless nights! haha!

Of course Matt spoiled me by getting me the cutest Kate Spade watch and by taking care of Sloane all day! Thanks Matt for being such a great support to me as I try and figure this whole motherhood thing out.